fuckin a. (that should give you an indication of what kind of mood i'm in. not too often i drop an f-bomb in a public forum)
ever had one of those days where you just hate everything around you? don't want to talk to anyone? anything anyone says you just go "whatever. piss off."
let me tell how my day has gone, and keep in mind it's only 8:25 am. i wake up and everything is good. i have my coffee, watch some tv, eat my breakfast. i'm all set to walk out the door at 6:55. right on schedule.
i walk out to my car to start it. i figure that i'll sit in it while it warms up and i'll drink some coffee. i unlock the door. good, no ice there (we had freezing rain yesterday). attempt to open the door...and it won't open all the way. well it will, but the front cornerpanel will be pushing in. in other words, opening the door causes a prying motion on the cornerpanel. so i figure, alright, so much for sitting in the car, i'll get the scraper and get some of this ice off the windows (i had gotten most of it off the car yesterday, just not the windows). so i unlock the back door. i pull up on the back door handle...and the God damn thing snaps off!! just snaps! oh, and a few weeks ago the gas tank door thing was frozen shut (because of ice) so i had to pry it open with a screwdriver. there's a little button i push inside the car to trigger it to open. the little thing inside the door broke off when i was prying it open. that's broken too. after breaking the handle i say "f this sh--! i'll just sit in the car, drink some coffee, listen to some sports talk." well after telling myself to not forget that i put my coffee in the driver's seat since i couldn't get in the car all the way because the frickin door wouldn't open all the way i sit down...on my coffee. spilling it all over my draws. so i storm back inside throwing my coat down and slamming doors and explaining to shayna (OH, who's staying home today btw) what all happened. and just to add to all this the apprehension i have over tomorrow. y'see, tomorrow we find out if our office is staying open. not if we keep our jobs, just if we're staying open. obviously if they say "we're shutting down overland park" then i go looking for a job. if they say "we're keeping overland park open" then i sit and wait to see in what capacity they're keeping it open. so i'm dealing with that unnecessary shit too.
and then there's the whole home loan thing. my credit? kicks ass. shayna's credit? not so good. a $1200 debt on a credit card, and some other debt that she tried explaining to me but i didn't really get. all i got was we need to pay that crap off before we can attempt to qualify for a loan. good news on that is the mortgage dude said, assuming we (well shayna since the debt's in her name) clear up that red mark, have an awesome shot at an FHA loan. thanks to my credit.
so anyway, let's run down what's broken on my car and/or needs repairs-
driver/passenger front inside door handles - BROKEN
backseat - had some chemical spilled on it that essentially causes anything that comes in contact with it to disintegrate.
driver side back door outside handle - BROKEN
trunk - BROKEN (won't open for now. i'll have to crawl in through the chemical infested backseat to fix the latch)
gas tank door - HALF BROKEN. still opens, just doesn't lock shut like it used to.
taillight/brake light - HALF BROKEN. light's work, the casing is broken. i got a frustrated with an ex one night and kicked it in (thinking it wouldn't break - rude awakening).
muffler - could use a new one. car is loud.
methinks that's all. seriously, i loved that car when i got it. LOVED it. now, i just want to drive it way out in the middle of kansas and let the coyotes have it. there was a time, a few months ago actually, when i thought i could get at least $1000 for it in trade-in value if i just fixed the door handles and the back seat and the trunk and the taillight. i mean, that stuff would take 5 minutes. but now? more like $200.
AUGH.
i.
want.
to.
go.
home.